I hate when how I feel on a certain day makes something I love doing feel horrible.
Just tried riding my bike, and it’s super sunny, but my body told me “Fuck you Parker. Go home and take a nap.”
I’ll try again tomorrow.
Things are starting to get heavy but happy. The grad parties are a good thing, I love all the free food, tonight there were five lasagnas and tons of pita chips and San Pellegrino fizzy waters at the grad party I went to. I have a hard time working up an appetite, I think it’s actually unhealthy and due to some kind of anxiety or weird mental thing, but I needed the food and ate a shit ton these last couple days. I’m still not feeling better from this respiratory infection/sickness but I’m loving riding my bike on a solid routine again. Sasquatch Festival and Prom took basically two weeks of riding out of my hands, and thinking back on it, the entire time I was wanting to ride my bike more than anything. Which is a good thing. And I’m excited to be back in that frame of mind. Maybe I should have brought my bike to Sasquatch… that would have been a great idea.
I am in the process of listening to the entire Sound of the Smiths CD, last night I listened to their live album Rank, which is tight. Morrissey goes hard, and I’ve passed up two opportunities to see him.
On another note, I am beyond excited to be in Seattle. I will be biking so much. I am nervous I won’t be happy and will avoid homework to explore the city or bike. I can’t wait either way.
There are a ton of girls around that I keep thinking I have a crush on but don’t. Right now I think I may go chasing a tail, and I have some high hopes, but probably won’t feel the same in the morning. I’m really uncomfortable with relationships right now — both intimately and not. Intimately, I can’t get over the fact that their is a looming date set ahead of all of us that will cut a lot of strings. Not intimately however, my bros, girls, and I have been having blasts. The other day at a campfire, we had some co-therapy and we all cried and let shit fall away into the fire. I really love my friends, I am so grateful and I am never grateful enough for lots of things in my life these days.
I am really into basketball, I’ve played four days in a row now, and my shot is getting better.
This week I need to ride 200 miles again and sell lots of bike stuff as well. I hope I get a job too.